I applied for a position at my college as I really need a better paying/ better spiritually/ more challenging job. I applied and I had an interview Friday, then I had a second interview today. There was some sort of mix up and the people interviewing me today thought I was interviewing for a different position. I thought it was weird, but as I would like most any position with the school I was ok with it. I felt that I was very articulate and friendly, energetic even. But now I feel all unsure and worried. Upset even.
Doubt is an evil little word.
I hope I get it so much. I feel like crying tonight.
Not to mention there is this guy at work who likes me and I don’t like him and he is being super creepy about it. He sent me a message tonight that made me feel even more uncomfortable. So I just want to go in and quit tomorrow. I don’t want to be there anymore.
And Suzy is kind of misbehaving in small ways, because it has been so cold that I can’t really take her on walks. It makes me sad to have to reprimand her, cause she gets so upset. I tried to take her on a walk tonight and her little paws got so cold she couldn’t walk when we got about half way down the block. I had to pick the poor thing up and carry her back home. I felt so terrible. I thiink it is time to cast on that doggie sweater and invest in some dog boots. Any suggestions on the boots?(does anyone even read this?)
Ahh well, I’ll try and keep a positive attitude and not stress about things which I have no control over. The interviews are done and now the decision lies with other people. I’m just going to hope for the best and stress less. And if I don’t get it I will try and learn from the experience. That’s all I can do right?
Oh! I also had the weirdest dream last night. My aunt was there and she asked why I was so upset by her passing (she is still alive so that kind of freaked me out when I woke up.) Then she told me that we were going to have a seance to talk to my Nanna. The whole setting had an Addams Family feel, the way people were dressed and my aunt an cousin were grey skinned. When my Nanna came she looked upset to be there. We were at some sort of party and we were outside. It was summer time and we were also digging in dirt. I can almost smell it. I kept seeing those little porch hanging lantern string lights too. Freaky dream, it was very unsettling.
And so in tradtion of when I tell ya’ll about my dreams here is an interpretation from the online dictionary http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/:
Dead
To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. You may suffer material loss. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. If you dream of a person who has died a long time ago, then it suggests that a current situation or relationship in you life resembles the quality of that deceased person. The dream may depict how you need to let this situation or relationship die and end it.
To see and talk with your dead parents in your dreams, represents your fears of losing them or your way of coping with the loss. You may want that last opportunity to say your final good-byes to them.
To see your dead sibling, relative, or friend in your dream, indicates that you miss them and are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them. In trying to keep up with the pace of your daily waking life, you dreams may serve as your only outlet in coping and coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.
Death
To dream about the death of a loved one, suggests that you are lacking a certain aspect or quality that the loved one embodies. Ask yourself what makes this person special or what do you like about him. It is that very quality that you are lacking in your own relationship or circumstances. Alternatively, it indicates that whatever that person represents has no part in your own life.
To dream of your own death, indicates a transitional phase in your life. You are becoming more enlightened or spiritual. Alternatively, you are trying desperately to escape the demands of your daily life.
Gray
Gray indicates fear, fright, depression, ill health, ambivalence and confusion. You may feel emotionally distant or detached.
Dirt
To see freshly stirred dirt in your dream, symbolizes thriftiness and frugalness. Dirt is also representative of situations where you have been less than honorable and may have acted in a devious manner.
Summer
To dream about summer, represents growth, knowledge, high productivity and maturity. You are showing tolerance and expanding your realm of understanding. It is important that your hope is still alive.
Light
To see light in your dream, represents illumination, clear mind, guidance, plain understanding, and insight. Light is being shed on a once cloudy situation or problem. You have found the truth to a situation or an answer to a problem. Also consider the color of the light for additional significance.
To see a bright light in your dream, indicates that you need to move toward a higher level of awareness and feeling. Bright light dreams are sometimes common for those who are near death.
To see soft or shadowy lighting in your dreams, indicates feelings and thoughts from the primal aspects and less developed parts of your unconscious.
Party
To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is bad, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills.
Very interesting, well to me at least. ^_^
I’m totally going to start posting more photo’s on here, just as soon as I can afford a point and click digital camera, as it will be easier to use this in day to day life than my expensive more professional camera.
Thanks for sticking in there as I try to figure myself out, where parts of me I knew I once had have gone and try to get back into writing.
This one was Jess and Evan’s, but they didn’t want it anymore since they have moved to Junction.
